Wednesday, February 4, 2009

22 Weeks

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22 Down...8 Strong

February 4- I am 22 weeks pregnant and Jarrod and I have been together for 8 years. It’s funny to think of what the last 8 years has brought me: a friend, a boyfriend, a fiancĂ©, a husband and now a baby. February 4, 2001 Jarrod and I were heavily flirting on a retreat. I would have never thought I would be carrying his child eight years later.

Jarrod and I have been through a lot in the last eight years. I’ve experienced some of my worst moments and some of my best moments with him. There isn’t a person out there that knows me better then he does. I’ve been so blessed by the last eight years. He’s taught me a lot about life, myself and relationships. Now, it’s time for him to teach our daughter the same.

Bringing a child into the world sends so many crazy thoughts into a persons head. What will she look like, how she will act and what kind of woman will she be. I find myself so many times praying that she doesn’t turn out like me in a number of ways. I go through my list and begin to panic. “What if she has this trait?” “What if she does what I did?” I’m not saying I think I’m horrible; however, there are certainly things about me that I’m not proud of. Though, I wouldn’t mind if she has my curly red hair! As much as I hated it growing up, and sometimes hate it now, it is something that’s unique and yes, sometimes red hair can be beautiful. As far as Jarrod’s traits…I hope she has his puppy dog eyes and his brains, his compassion, loyalty, and patience. Oh, and his humor. That man makes me laugh more then anyone I’ve met.

I realize there is so many things that help shape a person. I guess what I am saying is that I hope I am a good mom. All I know is to listen to God and accept the help from our families.

I’m so thankful for how the last eight years have turned out and I am excited to see all the joys the next eight years will bring.